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emoliiciious princessY

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ximin
sweet-sixteen
heart someone

-[she's-in-love-with]-
him
ELMOs.HIPPOs.SHEEPs.DUMBOs
pink.red.white.black.purple.
stars to bits and pieces.
music
beachlife.

[she-disdains]-
hypocrites.
nags.
forced into things.

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her wishlist Y

to be wibb him
to see his smile
stop brooding over things
be a better person
get good results
new laptop
a adiddas/puma bag
that study table
new shorts
new skirts
new tops
that guess heels
that brown addidas jacket



darliinksY

♥sherlin
♥jennifer

Alvis
brandon
candice catherine christina
gene
hazel huimin
jiiaxiin jeremy jessica jiewei joshua
kelvin korkor
lianli lilin loongxian
mingyi
peiyi
qinghui qixin qunbo
szekai
xinyi xingyu
yilin



whisper goodbyeY



kick them awayY
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Sunday, July 13, 2008

II NEED TO GET MY LIFE BACK!

*clearing off the webs*
sorry peeps, kept my blog dead for so long.
finding it meaningless to sit down in front of my computer like ii normally do.
everything is just different now.. people are changing, lifestyles getting affected, friends unlike who they used to be, relationship between people just broke off for no reasons. the whole world just seems to be changing every moment. getting exhausted of all these nonsense, its so hard to keep up to the pace of life. hmfpt.

went through a series of deep thinkings for the past few days.
recalling all the silly things ii have said and done and realizing things could be different if ii walked the other way. if ii had studied hard last year ii wouldn't have to retake my papers, get to know him , quarrel with people and make such a silly mistake. dumb. but ii didn't regretted walking this path,
though ii failed, ii manage to stand up and walk again. ii realized how much ii have grown throughout this 2-3 years. a big step out of my comfort zone. as time pass, people change and grow, either for the better or for the worse. life now seems more complicated but even more pleasant and meaningful. at least ii get to know what ii live for, not a puppet that others control.
yes, ii've made plenty of mistakes and no matter how much ii try to explain it's not gonna work.
so it's true that good things never last. friends come and go and only true friends stays behind.
feelings come and fades away too. holding on just because of the unwillingness to accept reality.
holding on to the little belief that things will still go the way as expected with perseverance. silly me.
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anyway, things have been cleared. all turning out to be a misunderstanding crap.
causing some unwelcome dog barking like crazy on my blog. LOL xD.. ii'll forgive them.
gutless people tend to need more care and concern as they can only sit behind their computer and act brave and sat. childish people like them, can't blame. don't understand why using their own name seems so hard. either they can't spell it, or they feel shameless of they parents.. hahas. opps.
forget they are gutless. can't blame. ii pity you, dog. (:

update again next time. feel like studying now. buhbye~

*nicole.
- just gotta accept it, reality is just so cruel.

others keep saying, what for, he's not a good guy. didn't even started, whats there to hold on.
letting go its not as hurting. but if this happens on you, you think you can let go? simply giving up the feeling you had for months?
for you maybe it's possible, but not for me. it just happen too fast too sudden there's simply no way ii can react.
things was just great couple of days ago but seconds later the world world just came crumbling down.
a sentence from others can really kill. now ii understand. ii know we didn't started. but ii like the way things used to be.
the way we chat, the way he disturb, the way he nagged at me for not eating, the way he disturbed me in games and the way he make me speak the truth. simply a "hi"can keep my smile on for the rest of the day. be it silly or whatever, its me. these memories is the only thing left behind after so long. there's no way ii could forget it. if ii hadn't told the truth things would not be so complicated now. ii gave the chance for explanation but there no valid. ii wanted badly to explain to you but words just get stuck. even to say a hi now seems so impossible. yes ii still care, the feeling is still there, but there's no way ii can forgive myself making this kinda mistake, ii got no idea how to face you now. now you should understand why ii always turn away or walk off knowing you're nearby.
ii know to go back to the past is impossible. perhaps you don't even bother. thanks for the memories left behind. ii love you.

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