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emoliiciious princessY

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ximin
sweet-sixteen
heart someone

-[she's-in-love-with]-
him
ELMOs.HIPPOs.SHEEPs.DUMBOs
pink.red.white.black.purple.
stars to bits and pieces.
music
beachlife.

[she-disdains]-
hypocrites.
nags.
forced into things.

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her wishlist Y

to be wibb him
to see his smile
stop brooding over things
be a better person
get good results
new laptop
a adiddas/puma bag
that study table
new shorts
new skirts
new tops
that guess heels
that brown addidas jacket



darliinksY

♥sherlin
♥jennifer

Alvis
brandon
candice catherine christina
gene
hazel huimin
jiiaxiin jeremy jessica jiewei joshua
kelvin korkor
lianli lilin loongxian
mingyi
peiyi
qinghui qixin qunbo
szekai
xinyi xingyu
yilin



whisper goodbyeY



kick them awayY
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Wednesday, June 4, 2008

back to revive my blog. sorry peeps. kept my blog so dead.
haven been in the mood to really go think about what to blog.
plenty of thoughts, too little time.
there's really alot of things ii wanna do but ii really can't.
to explain things out, to travel back to the past whereby life used to be happier, to see him really happy and willing to talk to me again. these are things that can't be done anymore.
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what's over is over. ii guess now no matter how much ii try to explain to you, the impact is already done, doubt further explaining is gonna change the impression of me to you. if ignoring and hating is gonna make your life easier and happier, so be it.
perhaps if ii hadn't tell you the truth in the first place, everything won't be so complicated like now. not going to cry over spilled milk anymore.
really exhausted of hanging on to the fact that everything, everyone is changing.
she can't make herself adapt to these changes.
why is it that every time she finally got used to stepping out of her comfort zone,
she have to adapt to further changes and making her life miserable.
all she ever wanted was to have fun with the class and able to enjoy the last 5 months of secondary school life. but now not only she screwed that wish she made things worse. perhaps because of that little small wrong move, everything is screwed. if only she hadn't told him the truth. if only she hadn't even gone back to study in the first place. maybe leaving the school now is gonna make life easier for everyone. self-studying is the same.
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life just isn't the same no more. the happy- go-lucky ximin no longer exist.
the cheerful her have now turned into an attention seeker, someone who everyone detest.
in other's eye she's just a gangster, someone who creates nothing but trouble.
she really didn't mean to make things so harsh. if talking back can make small things so complicated and troublesome, she's not gonna speak in school anymore.
only gonna answer relevant questions and concentrate on her studies.
hahas, since with her or without her doesn't make a difference at all.
only wanted to make everyone happy, but in the end things still went the other way.
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*nicole.
ii'm sorry. ii really do cherish the memories left behind.


sick and tired of everything.
ii need a vacation, a run-away holiday.
ii wanna get-away with all these nonsense.
ii wanna tell you that ii really love you.
ii really make myself to give it up.


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